So I suppose its official then

Why fear and doubt?

I know what I want, it is quiet simple really.

All of a sudden here I am again

I dont know what I want

But I do know

I dont know what I feel

But I do know

What am I asking for?

I do not know

I dont want things to change

But I do need to know what we are doing

And Im not sure either of us can tell

So where does this leave me?

Right where I was the other day

Not knowing, feeling all things at once; I am terrified

Ok det finns två bra saker med Norrland; långa bussresor som ger en gott om tid att tänka och sen även de där älskade personerna som bor där..

Luleå se upp; nu kommer jag snart

How do u do that? A few sentences from u and all the worrying disappears for a while. xxx

 And I dont know what to write,

I’m tired,

I keep thinking about you,

I really wish I could be there now;

I really wish we could talk face to face,

I really wish I could sort out what I feel,

I really wish I could go home,

This week feels like it will last forever,

I know we cant talk right now,

Or tomorrow, or thursday cause I’ll be busy

Friday is far in the future

Oh I miss you.

I want to go home

Aren’t I?

What am I missing?

How did this happen?

Does it bother me?

No; and that is in itself too weird to grasp

I don’t do this sort of thing

I don’t feel like this

I don’t

But now I do

And it doesn’t bother me

I let it happen

I wanted it

I still do

But it doesn’t make sense

I don’t do this

If I’m not insane now;

It wont be long

But I don’t care

This feels too right

And makes way too much sense in the simple sense that it doesn’t

For me to not want it

I am willing to give this a real try

With you

And I can’t believe that I am willing to admit it.

So; happy easter to you all in a strictly non-religious sense!

For me; easter is the holiday of chocolate; that is worth celebrating; who needs religion?

And it was a beautiful day…

Me today

Yes; there’s a guy

No; he’s not my boyfriend

Yes; I miss him

No; it’s not a stupid idea

Yes; it works out fine

No; leaving won’t be easy

But it shouldn’t be

And we are happy now

Isn’t that enough?

It is to me

Pictures from today; thanx Ang-harad!

Seamus and me

Hanna is hating easter before it even begins.. why is it that everyone she knows lives in the middle of nowhere and have no ability to actually get anywhere; resulting in Hanna having to go everywhere in two weeks time?

And as soon as I actually have a plan guess what? Someone fails to be present and I have to start all over; I love you honey, but you aren’t making this easy for me.

I hate holidays, bring back yards and lack of sleep, I don’t care; just don’t force me to go all the way THERE, I can’t do it. I’m sorry but I can’t.

But on this particular monday morning my mind seems blank of ideas. I realize I haven’t written anything of substance for a while; and the story of IT has been seriously neglected. I would like to appologise for this. But enough of that..

Today is a good day; not only did I get a good nights sleep;  today I have no afternoon lectures. Or evening yards. I don’t know; it’s like I could have a life or something if it wasn’t for the fact that I have anassignment to do lol

Shopping this afternoon yay!

Orka kliva upp tidigt på en lördag, och en söndag, för att inte nämna alla dagar veckan innan och veckan efter.. 12 dagar  i sträck.. snacka om slaveri.. Ajja, snart påsk!

I am so sick of definitions; life should be so much more

So I hear its my 20th today, dad called at 06.05, which means that it was 07.05 there but still; Insane. Or so I thought, I wasn’t intending to get up before 06.30 or so.. Realizing that someone else was up I did get out of bed; only to find that my housemate had been up all night watching the OC, not sure whether to be impressed or not got a big birthday hug

Turning twenty is slightly scary, I mean, I’m supposed to be an adult by now and all that, have things figured out, know what to do with the rest of my life. Well I don’t, and it only bothers me a little

So I suppose since I mentioned the fact that its my birthday a couple of times now I would like to draw your attention to other important things with the 25th of March. In Sweden they are celebrating waffle-day, In the LOTR nerdworld today is the anniversary of the fall of Sauron and Samwises daughter Elanors birthday, back in the real world slave trade was forbidden by law within the brittish empire on this day in 1807 and finally Saturns largest moon Titan was discovered on this day in 1655.

You learn something every day

Wow, första frukosten helt utan illamående på många dagar, uppskattas, magsjuka är helt överskattat. Så sluta oroa er så mkt därhemma, skriver mer nån annan dag! puss och kram

Gorgeous sunset from today

It really is

Two weeks and a few days till dad and sis come =)

I luv u mum; but this needs to be told;

We were having a video conversation yesterday; over skype to be precise; and mum says ”hey hang on, can u see me now?”

and i’m like ”yes mum, pic looks the same”

and she’s like ”oh, I was just checking if i could look at a different page without disapearing”

and i’m like ”what??????????????????!?!?! GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA”

she is so cute; shes got a laptop right; one of those tiny ones

its got built in webcam; where might it be? just above the screen, what did mum think?

LOL